Where is the color?

Do you ever wake up and not see the color outside? Does it seem like something is missing? I went to sleep last night so alive, so happy. I woke up and I was really sad. You have to look for the color outside to see it. That is the truth. 

I feel like all my friends are there, but not there. I hardly have anytime to talk to my best friend. We haven't had a sleep over in days. I hardly ever talk to you guys because you have jobs and school. I am just sitting at home staring at my math hoping it will fix itself. Oh thats another thing. Math is terrible . . .  I am terrible at it and as hard as I try always get a bad grade . . . 

Perhaps I shall listen to some music, close my eyes and pretend its summer. Its so exhausting trying to be me all the time . . .