The end of the Tunnel

Yeah, thanks for the great idea Sarah. I really appreciate you giving me name ideas for my next post :)

So, My last post was something of doom and gloom. I finally realized what my problem was. I went through a small tunnel, that was rather dark, I got out and the light was so bright I simply closed my eyes. It seemed dark to me. How blind I am. I look around and see how utterly stupid I am. Just look. I have an amazing family that loves me a lot. I have cousins who all are amazing in their own way. I also have tons of friends. So, I think that there was really no tunnel. It was just me closing my eyes to the world. 

See! I am not so clueless

Sometimes I suprise people. I know some people who love to throw blonde jokes at me and my family. Ha ha ha. Its really funny when I don't get the joke! oh yah, watch me laugh. Theres a lot of things that some people don't really think I get. or hear. I gather things that some people don't really know. You know the book Twighlight? My older sisters have read it. They talk about it all the time with their friends. I have gathered so much. Yep, Edward, Bella, Vampires the whole deal. I can't read the books so I am left with little clues, here and there. I have heard lots about movies, like Dark Knight. OH well, its life. Some times I am not sure if I am just talking to myself, or everyone. But right now, you might notice I am not so clueless. This twelve year old girl who is trying to grow up, but not hit the world to fast. It's hard. Maybe tomorrow will be different, maybe just maybe I will crash through the ice and feel the sun. I am not sad all the time, but I feel left out sometimes. I shouldn't be upset, but it is the life of a girl who is the third girl in her family of six kids. Maybe, just maybe I will find what I want to do with my life. I am in that point in life where I am growing up, but still a kid. Fly, I feel like flying sometimes. I think that my time to fly will come soon.

Christmas Music

Everything whirls around my head, Christmas here and there. I almost don't want to think about it. I want to explode inside. I go down to our computer. The earphones are essential. I go to our Christmas playlist. Something slow or fast? Manehiem steamroller. My heart is set on that one song. I play. The memories roll in faster that I can blink. Dancing with the twins. Christmas morning. Everything for those few seconds are perfect. I savor the one song until it stops. I am not sure what it did to me, but those 3 minuets and 16 seconds were amazing. Now I can wait a week, now I can wait till Christmas time. 

Meet Rudolph

Town Crier: Wake UP everyone!! I have an important announcement. I would like you all to meet Rudolph.              :o)           that is Rudolph. He is very special to me, and I want you all to be very nice to him. Alright, thats all, go back to bed!

Town People: Hi Rudolph, It's four in the morning!, He looks weird, Good Night

Dancing in Raindrops

Last sunday was the most interesting sunday I have had for a long time. After the service Bethany, Michaela, Isaac (a boy from church) Ellen, (church friend/camp hope) my best friend Winsome and I were outside. It started to rain. Just sprinkling. I tilted my head up to the rain, feeling it fall on my face. I love the rain, I love the feeling it gives. It washes away my head aches, it makes everything disapear.  It began to pour. There were little streams pouring down. We played in the rain, kicking the water at each other. Several of us accidently threw sunday shoes trying to kick. (Can't they at least make them to stay on?) Pretty soon we were all soaked. My tights were speckled with dirt, my skirt soaked. My face was streaming water. Michaela's hair was completely soaked. We all had tons of fun. We went to Taco Time after that and shivered to death, but it was worth it. The rain is worth it. What I said doesn't portray the feeling being soaked gave. It was romantic in a story book way. Like reading under your covers, or drawing a field of grain moving in the wind. Getting soaked to the skin with your friends is like that. Romantic