oh Life, why be so confusing?

So, my grandpa has a brain tumor. When I first heard, I was kinda grounded. My feet would not move if I wanted them to. It hit me like a wave, almost taking my breath away, and making me want to cry. I was going back and forth from I can't believe this is happening, to Oh, yah, my grandpa has a brain tumor.

It is most likely non-cancerous. They are fairly positive it is. It is about 2 inches big, and they are going to have surgery to get it out. They don't have a date yet, but probably with in the next month. It is very slow growing.

This whole thing has made me value life, and think more about time. I take for granted this house, my family. Someday, i am going to grow up, and get married. I won't live here forever. I won't forever be in "the house that built me." I was think about a specific memory I have. I was 6 or 7, and think about how I would be 14 in 7-8 years. In my brain, 14 was a completely different person. Mature, beautiful, talented, and knowing where she is, and what she is doing in the world. Boy did I have it wrong. I don't seem much different than when I was 6. Still me, still searching, and still wanting to be older. Sure, things have changed, but not that much.

Life is a blessing. Every breath is a gift. Don't waste it, don't take it for granted.







Have a great week everyone!


OH, and please pray for all my grandparents :)